Seeing results...

I'm officially a month into training and eating. I have my supplement schedule down and am very faithful to eating my meals. What I've noticed is that when you are not doing the right thing i.e. eating, exercising, you stay as far as you can away from the mirrors. Makes sense right? If you're feeling "fat", you avoid all contact with the mirror. It's as if the mirror becomes your Kyptonite and with any glance or speck of light in the mirror, we immediately become weak with self-defeating thoughts and behavior. This of course what happens when you aren't doing those things. This is a completely different experience when you are doing those things.

When you are doing the right thing, you can't keep your neck out of the mirror. Any mirror you walk by, you start sashaying around like Sandra from 227 screaming "Maarrrryyyyy". Or at least this is my perception of what has been happening to me. For me, I have noticed that I can't keep my little self out of that mirror. Not being vain, just trying to see the change I want to become. And you know what, I can't see it, that's another thing that happens when you start doing the right thing. Because I see myself everyday, I can't see anything different. I'll be honest, it is so frustrating. I want the muscle tone and blah, blah, blah but I just don't see it. It's very discouraging. I've been working and I mean working hard for a month and I can't see it. This gives me a little doubt that I will be able to make it by October.

Then, you hear that one thing you've been longing to hear..."You look good" or "Wow, have you lost weight?" or "Man, look at the guns?". The hubby is amazing at giving me that motivation and combatting my self-doubt. So as I move into another workout, another week, another month, I'm ready to attack it and when I'm down, which I know I will be, he'll be there to pick my pitiful, self-loathing self right on up.

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